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I am going to say now, this is personal.

Okay, I'm fucking sick of being called out on. I have my personal opinion of myself, one of which is not that nice, but what makes it worse is having someone approach you and rip you out even more than I already have myself. I don't appreciate being called pathetic and an attention seeker. Do you really think I asked for this to happen? Do you really think I wanted to feel this way. And just to clarify right now, I am not attention seeking, I just need to get this out. I don't need people coming and putting me down when my self esteem is already low enough. I don't need people coming and telling me stop being pathetic and to get over myself. You don't know shit about me, so stop telling me what I can and can't think about myself. I don't want to go into too much detail about what happened but if you really want to know, note me and I might tell you. I'm extremely insecure and I have a hard time trusting anyone. This incident happened on Tumblr. I thought that tumblr was the one place that I could express myself without being judged and ripped apart, but I guess I was wrong. And what makes it even worse is that the asshole is hiding behind a computer screen, they don't know anything about me and think that it's okay to verbally attack someone anonymously. It's not okay and I won't tolerate it. I have a lot of shit going on in my life and I don't need to add asshole anon's who think bullying is okay.
I must state again, I am not doing this/telling you guys this for attention, I just need to get this out because i'm upset about it and the people here are genuinely nicer than people on tumblr. I'm over all the shit. Stop making me feel so low.

You make me feel low
Don't make me feel low
Coz I tried so hard to convince myself
that it's okay that I feel this way - Sleeping With Sirens, Low


And as for art, I may or may not get to it. I'm very busy with school work and hockey. I'm sorry if I have disappointed anyone with the lack of art but I just haven't been feeling it, and then when I did, I didn't have my laptop. Art is just not as interesting as it used to be.

And on a side note, my friend got the All Time Low- Live Straight To DVD a few days ago and i'm going to her house on Friday to watch it and I can guarantee that I will cry. They have done so much for me, more than anyone understands. It's a shame people are such assholes. There's a whole story that goes with my love and hate for certain bands. But I wont say it because this journal is already long enough, maybe another time though.

I would still love to talk to you guys, don't be shy, feel free to shoot me a note sometime. Just start a conversation with me, I'm sure we can be good friends.